“I see Graham a lot. I love that. We have a laugh don’t we, and just making great stuff. We’re gonna be making that thing for * … a bin area, keep her bins safe so they don’t blow away […] Yeah, so we’ll be making that, and we’ll just be making like the benches and stuff and the tables. I’ve been working with Steve a bit lately. I like doing that too … the chickens, you know, just general maintenance of the grounds. What else have I done with Steve? Oh, we built that fence over there. Oh, you can’t see it, but there’s a fence over there and me and Terry were doing that. I think Graham was going to get the wood for it today, but I don’t think he did. So, we were doing that to keep the foxes out. What else have I done? Just little bits, you know. Yeah.
We’ve been making loads of Christmas stuff. That’s been quite a large project the past couple of weeks, yeah. Yeah, I’ve made a few of them. Yeah, Darryl thanked me today actually about the two trees that we made. Yeah, bless him. I didn’t know what he was talking about though. But yeah, making those trees. They’re great and the little Santa’s and stuff. Yeah, they’ve been selling. I’ve really been enjoying doing them. We brought in the cotton-wool didn’t we for the Santa’s. Have you seen the little reindeer? Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, we’ve been making the little ones. There’s one in the kitchen. They’re great […] They’re cute. Yeah, we’ve been doing them, just some chopping-boards, oh yeah, and the candles, you know, with the tealights in. I took two home the other day because they split. I love ‘em. Yeah, I’ve got me own tealights, nice smelly ones. Yeah, just love them. They were all on the other night. So, I did lots of those the other day.
All of it’s a highlight. Just every day I’m grateful that I get to come out here, you know, and I get better and better. I know by the time January comes I’ll be alright … it’s just an all-rounder coming up here for me because I am a bit worried about going back to work, you know, getting a bit scared and anxiety and things like that, so the more I come out here and stuff, and the more people I meet and that, it just gets easier and easier for me…
You know, when I was coming out back then I was occasionally doing drugs and stuff, you know, just the cocaine. But yeah, now … [stopped that now] oh yeah, yeah, yeah, I’m not around it. I’m not buying it. I won’t … do you know what I mean, if I’m around it or with people, that’s when you’re like … and I don’t do that no more, so you know […] But yeah, I don’t have any of that crap in my system, you know, and everyone says it, you know. I learnt myself, but yeah, this place has just brought me back really. Well, from doing the shit really, you know. I won’t ever be the same girl again and I’m fine with that, you know, or mellow, believe it or not. I’m a bit more understanding and a bit more accepting. I think the bad things kind of turned into … you know, sometimes trauma and bad things can make you into a better person, you know, and I feel that’s what it’s done with me anyway. I just try and help, you know, well I’m a lot more probably calmer, like you know, I was really like bouncy off the walls and stuff … just on life … life, not drugs. But yeah, I’m a bit more mellow now, but I think I am a better person after everything, yeah.
But what LandWorks has done for me is just loads and just getting out, you know, alone. But yeah, you feel welcome up here and you feel like … you know I love being around the table because I’ve never done that. I do like it. I love lunch. I think it’s great that you feed us. Like that’s amazing. I’m so grateful for that. It’s really good that we get fed. All of it, just sitting around chatting and it’s nice. But yeah, I love being around everyone chatting. Graham’s like my bestie, so I’m with Graham all the time. I’m like his shadow. But no, I talk to everyone. I love it. I’m probably annoying, but I just talk. I’m probably just there like in my own little bubble, but yeah, we just all have a chat, what we’ve been up to. I like to see Chris, have a chat with him. He is always coming out with something random around the table, but that’s the conversation starter. Bless.
So yeah, I like having the tea breaks. But yeah, again, I think it’s amazing that we get fed. That’s so lovely. I love the charity and I’d like to help the charity, you know, even when I’m not here, you know, and I’ll talk about it and I’ll share things on Instagram and things like that because I think it’s fantastic and it’s genuine as well, you know. Chris actually really does care for everyone. But it’s just all positives isn’t it. I just love the place. I just don’t know what else to say. I honestly do. I wouldn’t come every day otherwise. Yeah, it’s just been amazing for me, and I’ll never forget it.”
A window into LandWorks 